{"id":109,"date":"2015-03-10T17:27:06","date_gmt":"2015-03-10T17:27:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.brennenhoos.com\/?p=109"},"modified":"2015-03-10T17:30:51","modified_gmt":"2015-03-10T17:30:51","slug":"answered-in-fear","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.brennenhoos.com\/?p=109","title":{"rendered":"Answered in Fear"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.brennenhoos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/men.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-110 size-full\" src=\"https:\/\/www.brennenhoos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/men.jpg\" alt=\"men\" width=\"600\" height=\"400\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.brennenhoos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/men.jpg 600w, https:\/\/www.brennenhoos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/men-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.brennenhoos.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/men-510x340.jpg 510w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 600px) 100vw, 600px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">I didn\u2019t want to sit there<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">in that parking lot<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">mouth on your crotch<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">or holding you in my\u00a0hand, even.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">You asked me if I wanted to<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">\u201csee it\u201d.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">No.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">No is always the answer.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">I never want to peep.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">It never, ever<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">fills me with awe, or excitement, or joy.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">Or, peace.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">Ever.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">Until<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">Unless<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">you make me believe<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">you want <em>me<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">Until<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">Unless<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\"><em>I<\/em> matter.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">Until<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">Unless<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">looking at pieces of you<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">reveals an entirety<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">of something <em>more, other<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">But I couldn\u2019t simply tell you that.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">I had to tell you<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">something<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">nice<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">good<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">not true<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">so you wouldn\u2019t go away,<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">so you\u2019d<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">maybe<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right\">want me eventually.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">To tell you I wanted to <em>matter<\/em> to you<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">It\u2019s steep<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">Too dear to expose in a parking lot<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">on a thirty minute lunch<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\">when you want my answer to just be<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left\"><em>Yes<\/em>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I didn\u2019t want to sit there in that parking lot mouth on your crotch or holding you in my\u00a0hand, even. You asked me if I wanted to \u201csee it\u201d. No. No is always the answer. 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